A USELESS ME

From the past two days is the most miserably time for me ever since I started a relationship with my special one... Why do I say so? It is not because of he made me angry or disappoint me. Something totally out of expectation happened out of sudden and he just would not accept it... It stroked him down very badly and unexpectedly... 14th August 2008 was the day I firstly seen him howling and weeping in such a severe pain... What had happen? His closed aunt had gone and she will never return... It so happened on July 14 of Lunar Calender and it is a Ghost Festival for Chinese. He will never ever forget that day. He even told me a weird thought appeared on his mind that the ghost had grabbed her aunt's soul away... That kind of thinking is odd but who knows it might be true...

What upset me is not only to see him sad (now I know why he always look dull when he see me sad...sorry) and also to see him forcedly holding his tear from rolling down on his cheek... In fact, I feel very bad as I don't even know how to comfort him... Deep inside my heart i know it is a bit too much to tell him to be tough. Who can really be tough if this really happen? I wonder... Unless the person own a iron heart. When time passed and things happened, I am not sure whether I am suitable to be his girl friend or not... Maybe I am not qualified...

I don't know what should I do... I really don't know... I am very blur in my situation... What to do next when the next time I see him?.. I feel like avoiding him... I just don't know how to face him...

I know he will miss his aunt...
I know his heart is still ache...
But how to let him know the ties are not broken?
How to tell him the memories don't break?
How to tell him this is not the end?
How to tell him his aunt will look after him from up above?
How to tell him he still have each other?
How to tell him to stay strong in the God and they will be together again?
I WONDER..........

I am so sorry for his lost...
Very very sorry...