08th August 2008

08.08.2008. Again, the repeated date has arrived after 07.07.2007. Is this day special? It depends on what kind of thinking is implanted in your mind. To me, as a Pisces, this is a very special day as it will never come back again if we miss the chance~ It is a special day with a special date with a special number and apparently it is supposed to be a great day for me... Yea, it is true that I am a Chinese, but it is not because of the number 8 that holds great meaning of 'rich and great fortune' of Chinese Feng Sui for me to set the greatness of today but this is the year that I had chosen to ease all my sorrow, leave the dark of this full-of-cheating world and make the first step to accept the new year~ I remember one of my friends, Marcus Khoo, once told me: '2008 not just an ordinary year. It is not just because of the number 8 but it too means a new start and a new beginning. At first, I was agreed with him gracefully as i started my second relationship with my loved one at 1st January 2008 itself. That is why I really take this year very importantly.

But today, it ended up to be another ordinary day for me. 888 is extremely lucky for Chinese. I too am a Chinese but why am I so over-looked? God must have lost me somewhere~ He must have deserted me and turned his cold back and deaf ear to me. Nothing is special today, nothing memorable and nothing romantic but more than a little disappointed. It is just another ordinary day after all~ This day will leave me lots of pain, regret, disappointment, repentance, lament and deplore. My day should not be that ordinary, should it? lol, maybe i was wrong and I am still wrong.

All these while, I dare not plan for anything. But this is the year that i had put so much of hope and so much of effort to overcome my so called 'negative thinking' of my life. I started to plan things for my loved one, I planned things for my family, planed things for my friends, I even did things that I never thought I could do but does all these really work? Perhaps, I myself know the answer the best? Who could know better than me? No one but ME... I remember the pain. And I will never forget~ Plans that end up bringing me tears~

Today, i am supposed to have my loved one lying next to me to welcome the new day with me. Especially at 8:08am,when i open my eyes and I could see him smiling at me with a warm kiss and morning greeting. We are supposed to go for a simple lunch (it could be a bit more than just 'simple', Hehee^^) and perhaps we could have a walk in a busy street, do some shopping or for a movie~ And of course a romantic dinner, some sort of candle light dinner. Whoa~ Does it sound really romantic? I wonder~ Hahaa, it is simple, isn't it? But if it could happen, I would have melted in such a romantic atmosphere~

But I am not the most-neglected-one. At least I had a late night movie with my loved one last night~ The movie that we watched was Meet Dave, we were deep in the laughter for one and a half hours in the cinema! Hahaa~ My second favorite comedy after White Chicks. At least he is the one I saw when i opened my eyes in the morning with a sweet smile followed by a warm kiss and a 'Good Morning, dear'~ God did not treat me that badly! Just that this greedy me have been asking for too much~ Can't help it~ After all, half of my wish came true. It is not that bad either~

何为"樂觀"?? 吾不懂。。。