Great News of the Day!!!

It was just an hour ago when I received a call from Mr. O saying that Hayley is behaving normal and was quite active (eat, jump, bark, play etc. as usual when she was here at home). He said he was in touch with the Vet and the Vet explained that she was still having 'mild cough'. To be truth, I never ever seen a coughing dog in my whole life! That sounds strange to me. According to the Vet, he needs another one more week to observe Hayley. If there is nothing much, she would be home by this weekend!

Thank's every single one that gave Hayley strength and prayed for her! With all of your cares, she will be home this weekend. looking forward for this very moment.

Hayley girl is coming back home!! Hohohoo!

Deepest gratitude!

Deepest Gratitude

The me today is much much better than the past few days. Is is because of the sayings 'time heals everything' true or the people who has been supporting me day to day to uphold my strength play the magic in my mood change? If were to based on how I feel, I believe it is more persuasive to say the support that I get constantly is the only power to hold me firmly from the first day I collapsed until the me today who is able to stand on my own, to face the truth and to live my days without tears.

People that I appreciate the most is the person that means the whole world to me. He was the one that gave me strength, gave me hope, gave me love and to cry with me whenever I struck terribly by the bitterly pain feelings. He told me to trust Him and not to doubt His plan for us that confort me so much! Hand hold hand we passed each and every hard feelings I have had. Deepest gratitude for this person.

When I down with tears, the second person I contacted was my aunt who was being very patient to me and being there every moment I cried my lungs out.. She was there to fight for the right I supposed to deserve but sometimes, no matter how the party involved would like to repay in any manner, I do have to admit that the broken heart that smashed into pieces would not be as perfect and as shiny as it was. The cracks have imprinted and the marks is forever be seen.

Whole-heartedly, I would like to thank the pretty vet, Dr Goh, for suspecting the dreadful disease on our first visit for Hayley's body check up so soon and shared so much about distemper with us. That was how we aware of this disease. That was her to diagnosed Hayley with the disease so we could send her immediately to Dr K for his intensive care. It was her that I wanted to say thousands of thanks for Hayley to survive until this very moment. I teared when she said hope to see Hayley again for vaccination. God certainly has His plan. All we can do is just to wait for His plan to work out.

To the very experienced family vet that we have, Dr. Peter and wife, thank's for the urgencies made to send Hayley back to the pet shop. Again, thank's for telling me not to be too attached to any living things as things will go wrong anytime. I believe it is because I am overly attached that causes the pain I have suffered for days! I learned a lesson, it depends very much on how my heart attach in dealing with al my existing pets as well as the future pets.

My brother, Juen and my future sister-in-law, thank you for advising me to let go the imperfect one and look forward for a healthy one. Your words are very true but my heart, I still can't let go... If she is healed, even if she has permanent nervous problem or blind, I will take care of her fot the rest of her life. Hayley, you do not have to worry about your future days, just fight over the disease and come back. Mama is very glad to hear that you have started to eat yesterday! On your own some more! Please come back, Hayley.

Last but not least, Sophie, my half sister, your words indeed made me feel better. I really hope Hayley can feel my love for her and I will not forsake her as long as she lives. I want her to be the luckiest recovered baby!

I am still thinking whether to visit her this weekend or not... Would she be happy when she sees me and feels me? But when I am leaving, would she feels that I am leaving her? Which is better to do? Go or not to go? Still thinking...

Hayley...

Last week when I came back from class, All I could hear is both Hugo and Hayley barking impatiently awaiting me to unlock the house door and the cage. She would warn me to release her and circulate me wanted me to pamper her. But today, the feeling was so different when I stepped into the house... All I could hear was Hugo's bark asking for attention. I am glad that Hugo is still energetic here! What struck me was there is no more Hayley's smell as well as Hayley's noise... She was a female pup and since she could not bathe for a week in new environment, so I refer the smell as kiap kiap smell. I was so addicted to the smell and I love her smell! Every time I think about her, I could see the pictures of she is caged alone, quarantined and isolated... Dr wouldn't be so good and kind to pay full attention on her... What if her seizure start again? Who is going to take care of her? Who is going to massage for her? Every time when I consider this issue, I wanted so much to bring her back. Even if she couldn't survive the disease, at least I want her to continue to feel the love we give until she takes in her last breath.. At the same time, I do know very well that I can't provide her the professional care she needs.. When does she need to pump in with what kind of medicine in different situation to release her pain? All these things are the things that I do not know... All I worry is, the pet shop Dr might overdose her just wanting her to recover... Should I quit my classes to volunteer working in the pet clinic to take care of her? This is the only way to see her daily... Argh! Very contradict!!!

Miss you, miss you, miss you!!!!!

Hayley wanted to escape from the cage!

Second day without Hayley...

How is she doing? Anyone calls her Hayley? Anyone knows she doesn't like to be caged? Anyone plays with her? Anyone pamper her the way we do??

Made a call to the person in charge and he said Hayley is doing good. Able to walk, able to run, able to play and able to bark. Just that she refuses to eat. She is now under intensive care by a vet and I hope she is really treated well. Or else, I wouldn't have mind to take her back to pamper her like a princess again.. Just that, I can't provide her the professional care that she needs.. This is the very first time I get to know about distemper... The dreadful disease that ruin my days as well!

Does she ever remember us? Hayley, we miss you terribly so! I wonder if Hayley is as good as the person in charge described or he is just hiding the truth from me.. Deep inside, of course I want Hayley to fight the disease and come back home!

Mama is waiting for you to come home. Be strong Hayley!

Playful Hayley

It was just a day before she had seizure.

Hayley fighting piggy!

♥...Short but Sweet...♥

Nothing Last Forever, how much do you agree with it? As for me, I agree 101%.

It is 11pm right not and I am having terrible sore eyes and headache... It was just last Saturday, exactly 7 days ago, exactly at this time, when we brought back a two-and-a-half-month baby Shih Tzu from a pet shops in K.L. Although her look is not as outstanding as any other of my Shih Tzu, but she is extremely adorable. Her big round eyes, fluffy fur and her lazily moves made her looked so adorable!

This is her.

Her mini teeth!

See the way she sleeps!! Aiyai!

Her favourite toy!

The very second day, she was still very active playing around, chasing Hugo, enjoying her food and all. I just could stop keeping my eyes at her playing with the toys nor keeping my hand touching her fluffy fur. Just then, we noticed she had watery diarrhea... Without second thought, we sent her to our family vet thought of examine what is wrong with her. Sadly, the vet was still in his CNY break and will reopen the week after. Nothing we could do, we called up our frequently visited pet shop and the owner recommended us a vet and we then bought her there. And wow, she had fever, 40.3°C... The vet too diagnosed that she either had common flu or the killing disease called distemper... Without worrying much, we just continued with the medicine prescribed.

This is the first, perhaps the only time, I took bath for her.. Very memorable...

Before bathe!

Half wet!

She recovered quite well and there passed those happy moment spent with her. Until yesterday morning when we noticed that she started to cough and had slight fever, we then decided to take her to our family vet. The vet concerned her situation and worried for her cramp she had in the morning. He said after taking the medication he gave and if there is no second attack, she will be okay. Back at home, we painfully saw her suffering from cramp for three to four times... The little baby was suffering from that pain and it certainly made us feeling hurt as well... We then brought her back to the vet again for a distemper test and the result it positive... How could it be? She is so adorable! Why want to take her life away just like that especially after she has just got the feeling of home! The coziness as well as love? It is just not fair... Sadly, there is no medicine that can sure this disease... The only way she can survive is depending very much on her immune system and determination... We're going to pray for her each and every day until she recovers.

Now, she is sent back to the pet shop and what we can do is to wait for their vet to do the rest. All I hope is to receive a call from them saying that her condition is improving.. I don't want their money back, I just want my Hayley to come back safe and be with us happily forever.

How are you Hayley? Are you feeling alone right now? Is there no one accompany you and you are locked alone in the cage? Mama and Papa miss you so much. Stay strong and come back to us! We love you very much..