What a tiring yet contented day! Hung up with my brother, sister and cousin in the city from Time Square to Lot 10 to Sungai Wang to Pavilion! Everyone included aunt did not expect me to go out and spend my time hanging around. Why? Because, all these years, I have been spending most my CNY hiding in the room struggling.
Well, how was it like to live my forth day without him? Well, I keep telling myself, I am okay to live without him. And yes, I did it. For those who think I can't live without him, I DID IT! But the fact is, if my heart don't even bother about his existence, I won't even started a post a day before I sleep with the title of "My xx Days without Him". Perhaps, I do miss him dearly from the bottom of my heart just that it is just too painful to endure the pain again and again. Numbness is all I can feel. Every time I have recovered from my heartache, there will be another one coming, very soon. How many more times do I have to stand? I am not the same as anyone out there, I do not like doing things on my own yet underground. Do not analyse logically as theory and practical work not exactly the same. Many things can be done to make things better but instead of better choices, things happen the other way round. Enough.. It's enough.. I think I have had enough. I should not facing this alone.
Please, do not judge my feelings if you failed to experience whatever I am undergoing. He belongs to there, not here.
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