It have been exactly a week since my semester break have started but there is only days after the separation with someone…
As far as I remember, I have this weird feelings towards separation since I was very small. I feel very bad when I have to separate with my loved ones especially to those I thrived a close relationship with. I remember I was just a six years old girl and my aunt (father’s sister) had taken up her driving course. Each time she left home for driving lesson, my day turned upside down. This strange feelings is in my blood. When I was younger, I even feel bad each time my father left home for work… Here come when I was nine, my aunt got married. After attended her wedding dinner, my parents used all sorts of trick to got me into the car and took me home. At that night itself, I woke up in the middle of the night to begged my aunt home! These are the feelings I can’t handle even I am now a 22 years old adult. I feel so helpless regarding on this matter…
This is the strange feelings of separation from the world… Every time I have this wired feelings, I will totally lose my strength in doing anything… Yes, EVERYTHING. I keep telling myself that I need a change and I must change, but failure seems to take over the rest! This post is going to remind me how useless I am and weeks later, I hope I will feel a little better~
I understand where you're coming from, its sad what you are going through but you are still young and sometimes such lessons are good for us...
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